Done with Winter Semester!

Baru sahaja hantar project terakhir, semua paper semester lepas pon dah done, Alhamdulillah.

Mari bersihkan laptop dari file file semester lepas.
I'm a happy girl :)

Brains!

Saya bermata panda. Ada bulatan hitam di sekeliling mata. Aih kalau comel cam panda takpe gak, ni dah macam walking meat dah haha. 

Anyway, I met with Derek Shepherd "McDreamy" today. Sape sape yang tengok Greys Anatomy tau la sape mamat hensem tu haha. Well, not exactly that Mcdreamy, I actually met one of the neurosurgeon in Universitatklinikum for Clinical Applications class. Walaupun hanya tidur 2 jam semalam, and kelas harini start pukul 8pg, saya berjaya focus dalam kelas petang McDreamy because he talked about awesome things. 

Insaf. He showed us images of CT, MRI and also DSA. Dalam kelas selalunya belajar theory, how they do reconstruction of those images but not interpretation of each image in real life. 

Gambar hiasan tiada kaitan dengan sesiapa

Ada satu gambar, McDreamy said, "This is a really poor guy. If you can see his CT image, he got not only one tumor in his brain, but two! He probably live with those tumors for 15 years already and usually with this kind of tumor, you only got 7 to 8 months to live." Dalam CT tu nampak 2 regions in his skull that appear whiter. Satu tumor cam bergabung dengan brain and the other one, push the brain macam mkn space dalam skull. Brain dah tak center. Sedih.

Ada satu MRI image, tunjuk few stages of  pendarahan dalam otak. He said, this image belongs to a kid. GULP. He showed dekat dalam skull ada few layers of greyish color meaning few stages of pendarahan. Ada yang dah lama, ada yang fresh. and the class tersentap bila dia cakap, "This is the result of child abuse, an international problem". 

Ada yang accident and nampak ada gumpalan darah dalam kepala. For this case, we got no other choice except for taking a drill and drill his skull to let the blood out. Terbayang orang drill dinding sebab nak letak gambar. Hadeh. 

McDreamy sangat macho. Haha tiba tiba. Dia ingat semua benda dalam otak tu segala salur darah semua benda lah woo machonyaa. Teringat time belajar anatomy dulu, the hardest paper for me. Anything involving memorization is a pain yo!

Then he showed us segala medical technology yang ada in his department. Surgery images yang dia baru buat pagi tadi dan dia cakap semua org in his department is happy today because the surgery was a success. Satisfaction di dalam kerja, I can see that right through him. The way he talked about each case, the way he talked about a successful surgery and also the sound of his voice talking about fatal cases. 

Funny thing is, kitorang semua cam got so excited looking at how awesome catheter works etc. Geng perempuan macam ter"aww" bila dapat pegang stent. Macam perempuan dapat bunga, lelaki dapat kereta HAHA. No wonder lah amek Biomedical Engineering kot. 

Anyway, sepanjang kelas saya rasa sangat terkesan dengan kebesaran Allah, subhanAllah, and I cant thank Allah enough for being healthy, tu belum tambah segala benda lain. Often times we get distracted with afflictions that rarely strike, forgetting the countless blessings that always there. Manusia sungguh!

Okay bye, nak kena besarkan lagi mata panda saya. Haih thanks to Matlab for behaving so well. Huargh!!!

Loser much?

Say, O Muhammad, "Shall we [believers] inform you of the greatest losers as to their deeds?

They are those whose effort is lost in worldly life, while they think that they are doing well in work."

Those are the ones who disbelieve in the verses of their Lord and in their meeting Him, so their deeds have become worthless; and We will not assign to them on the Day of Resurrection any importance.

Al-Kahf :103-105

P/s: semoga tidak lemas. semoga. 

I'm building invisible wall around

Just so I will not repeat the same thing again and again.

Wohoo!

of feeling special

Ah saya memang suka perasan. either saya kuat perasan or memang orang orang sekeliling yang suka buat saya jadi perasan. hah sempat lg tu salahkan orang. 

salah satu benda yang buat saya perasan ialah bila orang pm me in facebook asking for address. HAHA. okay i actually feel bad, sbb last year, i missed two of my friends' wedding. both of them saya kenal dalam tak sampai sebulan pon, mcm biasa biasa la kan. tapi bila diorang inbox-ed me asking if i'll be back in malaysia or not (time tu still in Nashville) and nak antar kad. rasaaa bagusssnyaaa diorang! you know, org yang nak kawin mesti lah busy kan pastu ada masa nak antar kad kepada orang-orang yang tak berapa nak penting macam saya. acehh. :')

lepas tu selalu perasan bila ada kawan kawan yang ckp, "ni aku tak bitau sesape lg ni tau. kau org first." OMG ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME! tak ke perasan kat situ? diorang memang suka buat orang perasan tau takk cuk3. Well, i dont even care being the last person, tapi selalu cam jadi first je? Hah sudah perasan. perasann.

and then, lagi perasan kalau ada orang ingat nama kita walaupon kenal like 289 years ago. how come you guys ada memory yang awesome macam tuuuu?

Okay saya admit saya bukanlah orang yang buat "happy birthday ritual" dekat facebook. Sometimes kalau rajin rajinlah, tapi selalunya malas ngehh. Tapi few days ago, I wished my ustaz back in Intek on his birthday. Guess what, sehari lepas tu de reply wall post tu. and what so special about that? SEBAB ORANG LAIN PUNYA DIA JUST LIKE JEEEEEE. Nak menangis rasaaa :')


Okay bye lah enough perasan-ing. 

Alles Gute zum Geburtstag!

Aman, 7 years old.
Okay, ni 15 years younger than me. 

Kayra, 2 years old.
Err I'm 20 years older?!

Dulu selalu celebrate birthday kawan kawan seangkatan, now celebrate birthday kanak kanak umur satu angka pulak. Patutlaa dulu rasa muda, now rasa slightly old. Eh slightly je?

Ahhh I feel old.. 

Eh mmg da tua kott?

Winter semester (plus 3 days of summer semester)

1. 

Prof Bg: The great thing is, you passed.

Me : Wait, how?!

Slumber gajah orang da bagi pass, g tanya tanya lak kenapa. 

2. 

Grade paling teruk, datangnya dari professor yang saya paling suka dan professor yang saya paling tak suka. Aishh dah la sama gradenya. Prof yang paling saya suka juga tak suka saya. HAHAHA. Down seminggu. 

Lesson learnt: benda yang enjoy belajar, tak semestinya fully faham. benda yang tak enjoy lagi la tak faham. mwahaha. 

3. 

I only have two levels of grade. 

Pass and fail. 

4. 

I hate oral exams. but if I am going to be a teacher, I would love to give oral exams. *sengih jahat*

5. 

Prof Bk: I had a chance to ask a diplom student in his final colloquium the thing that I had been asked in my final 300 years ago. Derive the Maxwell equation. Lol

Oh, rupa rupanya dia balas dendam. Thus point number 4. 

6. 

I am still wondering, what did I learn during my undergraduate? Empat tahun kot tu?

7. 

Going to class is very important, paying attention in class is really important, semua important lah. sebab secoet yang anda missed itulah akan ditanya di dalam exam. written exam is okay because you still have kicap kipas udang nak goreng goreng, but in oral exams, he can see right through you mwahaha. 

8. 

Death

9. 

Brain will severely damage if it doesn't get enough oxygen for 3 minutes. 

Three minutes.

10. 

Heart starts beating when it is 4 weeks old. (Prof ckp sambil buat jari nak tunjuk betapa keciknya heart time tu). Subhanallah.

11. 

Kelas pukul 8 pagi belambak but it's okay sebab subuh habis pukul 6 sekarang. Embracing summer happily :)

12. 

I hate oral exams. Did I mention that already?

13.
Betol. Bersyukur lebih susah dari bersabar. Blessings lagi susah nak nampak dari ujian? Manusia sungguh.

14.

It has been about 6 months I'm in Luebeck! and I think I know what I wanna do bila besar nanti. yeah kinda. kot. HAHA.

15. 

What is truss? Not trust, but truss. 

16. 

Ratio lelaki dan perempuan dalam most classes. Sixteen to five. 

17.

Saya tak berjaya jadi pelajar pandai, dah ada niat dulu since I'm the only person who wears hijaab in the class. Cam konon represent Islam la kan, but then kalau ada two levels of grade je yang didefine, camne nak cemerlang? 

okay okay summer semester pulak haha

18. 

Final point: "Sufficient for us is Allah , and He is the best Disposer of affairs."

menipu diri sendiri

Takpe Naziha, belajar convolution ni akan ada gunanya nanti. sudah tentu nanti akan jadi manusia yang berguna kepada agama, bangsa dan negara. Salam 1Malaysia kah3 tiba2.

(sambil menggelakkan diri sendiri)

Travel safely

Rest stop paradise

#prayforjapan

i started to feel like people should be extra mindful with their words, as not only others looking(and judging), but angel is also writing.

When the trumpet blares, there will be no more kings, only slaves.

You will not be asked about your culture in your grave, 

and you will not be judged based on your fathers last name. 

When the trumpet blares, there will be no more kings; only slaves 

and your family traditions will not be able to keep you safe. 

Your language will not bring you any comfort on that Day, 

and none will care about the kind of food your mother used to make. 

The Angel of Death does not discriminate!

I'm never a big fan of poetry. Dulu zaman sekolah, sajak segala never make any sense to me. I dont see why we need to learn literature, kenapa dalam subjek bahasa melayu kena belajar bab sastera sastera semua tu, why we need to understand the meaning behind "The Road not Taken" punya poem. 

BUT NOW I GET IT!

Skodeng deng deng

Location: Miniatur Wunderland, Hamburg

Date: March 2nd, 2011 (HAH really dah 2011??)

Victims: Kids that soon to be mat saleh yang kononnya hensem

p/s: Skodeng deng deng hanya boleh diapply kepada kanak2 bawah umur. Oi jangan gatal!

Oh helo ada baiknya cerita pasal Miniatur Wunderland kot? 

Sweetness to the core

‎"Things aren’t always as they seem. Umm Musa was told to throw her son in the river, Yusuf was left for dead in a well, Maryam delivered a child alone, Yunus was swallowed by a whale, Ibrahim was thrown in the fire and Umm Salamah thought no one could be better than Abu Salamah. Yet look at how it turned out for them in the end. So don’t worry, Allah has a plan for you."

Okay nak cerita benda sweet tapi sila google sendiri cerita Umm Salamah. Boleh ke camtu, kata nak cerita tapi suh google sendiri? Boleh boleh..

So apa sweetnya? Tgk cara Rasulullah jawab apa yang Umm Salamah ckp bila Rasulullah proposed to her.

"O Messenger of Allah, I have three characteristics. I am a woman who is extremely jealous and I am afraid that you will see in me something that will anger you and cause Allah to punish me. I am a woman who is already advanced in age and I am a woman who has a young family." 

 The Prophet replied: "Regarding the jealousy you mentioned, I pray to Allah the Almighty to let it go away from you. Regarding the question of age you have mentioned. I am afflicted with the same problem as you. Regarding the dependent family you have mentioned, your family is my family."

Rasulullah laaa lelaki paling sweet sekali dalam dunia ni.
Camne tak jatuh cinta? 

Multitasking at its best

I can do Matlab, watch movie, read blogs, tweet and chatting at the same time. Obviously it is not effective, but I just cant do one thing at a time. 

Average is the new exceptional

I have been an average since forever. and I'm not really proud of it.